Villiers Terrace (Nameless #2)

I once knew a man
A man called "S"
He was a poet
A suburban bohemian
He's a different man now...

We were 18 maybe 19
Fresh outta school
Freshman in University
Young, naive, impressionable
Open to open doors

I remember 'Villiers Terrace'
It's just an apartment now
Probably a slum
Probably the same tenants
But at the time, it was magical

We'd go there to see what was happenin'
People were rolling around on the carpets
Mixing up the medicines
I'd just go to watch
I wasn't that curious, yet...

The music was LOUD and RETRO
It was one big room
With a Stones poster on the wall
And a beer bong in the kitchen/bathroom
There were lots of sad people there

But i was intrigued
I'd never seen such behavior
Not from other kids anyway
I sat there like i belonged
But i knew i didn't
i knew i didn't

I remember 2 girls
Both Beautiful
Both Sad
Both making lasting impressions
On my psyche

The first remains nameless
But only for lack of information
She'd sit and my feet
And try to talk to me
But i was aloof

She murmered something
And i said, "Well, yeah i guess"
The music was oh so loud
She withered and retreated
At my answer...

I said, "Wait, what did you say?"
She said, "I asked if i repulsed you"
I said, "My God, no! I thought you asked if i was attracted to you!"
I wasn't, but i didn't want to hurt her feelings
But it is what i thought she'd said...
She stopped sitting at my feet

The other remains nameless
Though i'll never forget her name
She was beautiful, and sad
That is my aesthetic kryptonite
I could not resist

She was eager to please
And i'd see her frequently
But i'd only let her go so far
I cared, and it's not my style
To cut down beautiful things

Ultimately, however hard i tried
I could not help but do it
She was so beautiful
She was so sad
I thought that i brought her joy
But i only brought her more sadness...

See, i just couldn't hang on
To a girl who would injest anything
It frightened me so
It was i who retreated
I still think about her often

She was a mommy soon after
That gave me a start, but
It needn't
It wasn't
It isn't

I would love to see her happy
I would love to see her complete
She was so beautiful
She was so sad
She is always with me...

I never went back to Villiers Terrace
"S" did, but
It was just too sad
It was just too ugly
It was just a bit pathetic