Random Act of Consciousness

I watched the making of Dark Side of the Moon this weekend
And it occured to me that that album shaped my musical tastes from a very early age.
I like Pink Floyd, but I've never been a huge fan.
Then again, I don't turn them off when they come on.
But when I was 7 or 8 I used to put that album on all of the time.
My dad had loads of great records, from Cheech & Chong to the Beatles.
I was partial to Dark Side though, because it said "bullshit" in one of the songs.

Anyway, back to watching the doc.
I realized that that album has EVERYTHING i love about music on it!
It totally rocks, but it is also very delicate in places.
It can be quite frightening, then turn around and be absolutely beautiful.
It sounds like it came from outer space!
The lyrics are surreal in some places, and very simple and straightforward in others.
Dynamically it goes from quite and soft, to full orchestra, girl wailing, guitar soaring loud.
However, It takes it's time and doesn't slam you over the head.
David's voice can be gravelly and big or sweetly soft.
It's emotional, without be corny, and saying "i love you, blah blah blah"
And most important of all, it's got fucking tunes!
It's called songwriting! More people should try it!
Anyway, the best records contain all of these things.
Lots of them have bits & pieces of these, that's easy.

So, if anyone is reading this, you may be asking yourself,
"yeah, so, big deal? everyone likes that album!"
Well, yeah, you'd be right to say that, but that is not the point.
The point is, that up until now, I thought that I controlled what happens to me.
That I was able to make a choice.
I'll listen to this, and I'll hate that.
I'll eat this, but that makes me sick.
I like that color, but this one is tacky.
I drive this kind of car because...
I wear my hair like this because...
I believe that because...

That's all out the window now!
Music has moved me because I thought the word "bullshit" was funny!
That's just so f'in random!
Do I sound disappointed?
I'm not! I actually feel free!
Ask me why I do what I do, and i'll answer, "i've got no idea".
And that's sufficient! It's true, I don't know. Who cares?
I'm attracted to a particular kind of person because one day when I was little, I was walking to school and I tripped and fell in a big pile of sticker-bushes. I went home, instead of to school, and I read about Lewis & Clark. Then later, it rained and I took off all my clothes & shoes and ran around the neighborhood screaming "i like you! I like you". And that's when it all began. Oh yeah, did i mention that I was C-3PO for halloween that year? it was one of those lame 70's costumes with a plastic mask held on by a string around your head, and a picture of the character on the chest of the plastic poncho that came with it. What's with that shit anyway? Why couldn't they just put c-3po's chest on the chest of the costume? why put his face on it? his face is on the mask already for fuck's sake! If i dressed like a vampire, I didn't have a picture of a vampire on my chest, with the word "vampire" on it! Ridiculous, am I right?

So, somewhere in that mess of story a is the reason I'm attracted to one kind of person over another...random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random random